Mugged in Bogotá

Sometimes I consider myself the luckiest person on earth. But if you follow my blog, you also know that my life is full of “events”. A few hours ago, I found myself in another situation that made me think, “That might be it.”

I am now in Bogotá, Colombia. I have been traveling this beautiful for exactly 5 weeks now. During this time, I heard about various tourists being robbed and one being stabbed on a street where I spent a lot of time. So, there’s some context to the story.

Today at 3:00 am, after a nice party, I wanted to head home. My friends from the party have successfully booked a taxi after a long waiting time. Out on the street when I walked them to their taxi, the streets were packed with taxis and other cars. Just a regular busy Saturday night. I found a vacant taxi and jumped in after he offered a reasonable price.

He drove off, I followed the trip on Google Maps to make sure that the path was right. He took small side streets, so I felt a bit dubious. Soon enough, he slowed down on a ramp, where I thought the car might be a bit too weak, suddenly two young thugs jumped into the car, sandwiching me in the back seat, waving knives, and shouting at me in Spanish, including the driver. It was clear, I was being mugged.

I used my basic Spanish to tell them that I would give them everything. No time for bravery in a small taxi with three thugs in a dark street in Bogotá. They took my phone, watch, the cash I had, and my wallet. I had around 4 bank cards! I usually don’t carry all the cards with me, but today was my lucky day, I guess. They asked me which one had money, so I pointed at the one debit card that had the least amount (around 400 Euros). They somehow believed me and forced me to unlock my phone and open my banking app. They put a cap on my head and kept saying “close eyes” so that I don’t see them and I don’t see the road etc. I kept my head down.

While all of this was happening, the complicit driver was driving around. Then they pulled over where another car came and they exchanged one member of the gang. The one with my credit cards went in the other car, and a new thug came in to help watch me. Then we started driving the streets in what, I assume, was in circles until the other guy withdrew the cash from my card. They communicated back and forth discussing the amount that they would make and which ATM machine would have the least limit on cash withdrawal. They asked me many questions and sometimes with Google Translate when I didn’t understand.

I was there, with a dry mouth, thinking about all the possibilities. I had zero chance of overtaking the three in the taxi with their knives. They can have the money. I just hoped I wouldn’t be harmed. I was trying to prepare to fight if they attempted any physical violence. They drove to a quiet place, where someone started to wash the car. Here, a thousand other scenarios started playing in my head. Will they color the car? Was it a fake taxi? Just a yellow car that I didn’t notice? Is this escalating to a bigger crime? Will they kill me? Stab me? What are the possible lives I could be living? If any.

I kept myself together and stayed mostly calm. I cracked a few jokes, hoping that making them laugh would earn me a few credits of survival. I told them that I was an Egyptian dancer and that they could keep the watch because it was a gift from my Ex. They laughed and even put on one of my favorite songs. I was not sure if this was a good sign or if they were sarcastic. One comforting thing was that they insisted that I look down and don’t see their faces. I hoped it was because they would release me later. One of them told me, “Sleep if you’d like, we will release you in a bit”. They were waiting for the guy who had my debit card to squeeze all that was inside.

After a while, they drove to a dark road and told me that they would release me, and if I looked back, they would stab me. I told them that I understood and that I was not stupid enough to do this. Released in the random darkness of Bogotá, I ran away from that spot. I stopped another taxi (I had nothing more to lose), and went to my hostel, and immediately called the other banks to block the cards. Afterward, I went to the nearest small police station where they said that they couldn’t help me. I should make a report online.

It was a long night. I have lost some material things, but I am glad that I am unharmed. Now, don’t wonder if I am not reachable for the next couple of weeks. I still have access to my Instagram and WhatsApp, but I am not sure how long the WhatsApp on the computer will continue working. I wrote this to share with you my experience, partly because of emotions, but also so that you avoid making my mistake.

Later, while writing this post in the lobby of the hostel, an American girl came crying because she was robbed a couple of weeks ago and her only remaining credit card was blocked, and has no money for food or to go to the airport. She sat beside me and we exchanged stories, and later found solutions to our financial crises, thanks to great family and friends.

I still love Colombia 🙂

Teenage Boy Brandishing Knife And Wearing HoodieNote to inspector:Image shot before Sept 2009

Reborn

Five weeks ago, in Zurich, Switzerland,

At the end of my workday on a Friday, I was unsure about the best way to get to Geneva for a weekend event. Should I take the train or drive there? The trip is between three and four hours, and I love driving, but the weather is bad, and the rain is heavy. The train ticket would cost around 90 Swiss francs, so I decided to drive.

On the highway, the cars in front of me were splashing water in my face. I had to keep my distance or overtake them. The rain was heavy, and the roads were filled with water. While overtaking one of the cars with a speed between 105 and 110 km/h, I felt that I lost control of the car. It started drifting, my eyes opened wide, and I automatically raised my guards and observed the world. The car was drifting to the left, heading towards the side barrier of the highway, and all I could think was “it is happening.” I hit the side rail, and then the car spun around itself counter-clockwise while also drifting to the left, hitting the side barrier with every half-turn. I pressed the brakes without help, and after two full rounds, I pulled the handbrakes, which brought the car to a complete stop. At that moment, I was facing the oncoming cars, three lanes that came to a halt, and I took a few seconds to assess what had happened. I was uninjured, the car motor seemed to be still working, but I saw parts of the car on the highway. A car passed by and asked me if I was fine, and I nodded “yes.” A French truck driver had already stopped on the service lane, wore his reflective vest, and came to me, saying “Monsieur, Monsieur, ça va?” I told him I was okay. He told me something in French, which means “if the car works, move it to the side of the road,” which I did, and thanked him.

I called the police number and told them I had a car accident. They connected me to the responsible emergency number, and they asked me where I was, which number was on the nearest sign, and if anyone was injured. After that, I told them that there were some parts of the car on the highway that needed to be cleaned to avoid other accidents, and the woman responded, “yes, we see it on the camera!” That impressed me.

The friendly police arrived, they cleaned the highway, started the investigation, asked me some questions for the report, and started examining the car’s tires. They told me the tires were legally fine, but not good enough for that speed-weather combination. They gave me a QR-Code with which I could check the report online and use it for different public service offices. The policeman gave me advice on how to drive in such weather in the future. In the end, they called a towing service, which took me and the car to park in a garage.

Despite the accident, I decided to go to my event in Geneva because I didn’t want to dwell on the negative. During the train journey, I reflected on how much had changed in just one hour. Things could have changed even more significantly, but thankfully I am fine.

I remembered that life can be unpredictable and that it’s important to live life to the fullest. Money in the bank wouldn’t matter if I were to die, so I resolved to experience more, love more, and spend more.

I discussed this with my colleague Miranda and she said “Die With Zero” referring the book with this name. I also discovered that I was not afraid to die. Not that I am eager to discover the afterlife, but I am fine with what I have lived so far. Maybe now is a good time to ask you for your pardon, if I was ever mean to you, and if you continued reading until this line.

Moving forward, I plan to continue traveling, driving on the highway, and writing. Most importantly, I will do all of these things with a smile on my face 🙂

The best Soup

So you have crossed oceans and thousands of kilometers, then navigated among the alleys and the old houses to that tiny restaurant. There, they follow an ancient recipe, and they make the best soup in the world.
Stop.. Before sipping that soup, remember.. It could be really the best..

You sipped the soup.. You closed your eye and smacked your tongue. You tightened your lips and smiled to your own self.. This was the best soup you have ever sipped.. The taste is now imprinted in your taste buds.. You will never forget these few seconds.. Suddenly everything around you becomes part of the moment.. The old half-finished walls.. The old wooden chairs.. the old lady cook.

Congratulations.. That was it.. The best soup in the world..
But then.. That was it.. The last soup.. The last moment..
Now every soup tastes “less”.. No soup succeeds to impress.. Your mom’s soup tastes like water and your wife’s soup tastes like “piss”..

Do we really want, to always have the best?

Photos: man: Photo by Hisu lee on Unsplash, Soup: Photo by Max Griss on Unsplash

A Deadly Accident in Hamburg

Warning: this post describes a deadly accident that I have witnessed today. Please do not proceed with reading if you feel unsure if you can handle descriptions of violent deaths. I write here to cope with what, I hope, does not remain inside me as a trauma.

It is Hamburg, I left Morad’s apartment heading to the airport to fly to Zürich. Due to some construction work unaccounted for in Google Maps, I missed the direct Bus by 20 seconds. I had to take another route. A bus, a tram and then finally here I am waiting for the train that will take me to the airport. The sign showed a delay. The train didn’t show up. The next one is scheduled in 5 minutes. Meanwhile, another train arrived and unloaded many people. Its sign read “Bitte nicht einsteigen”, please do not mount the train. And it set going.

I heard a lot of screaming.. I turned my head to see a human body stuck between the moving train and the platform. It was the upper half of the body. The train kept on moving and led to more hits to the body. It seemed forever. In the first glance I had goosebumps. I turned my head away because I know two things. There is no way this person will survive this accident, and what I will see will remain with me forever. I kept looking away.. Wanting to shout: “please don’t look”. But then I was also looking back at the victim, wondering if there is anything to do. We shouted “STOP”! but in vain. There was no way the train driver would hear any of our shouts.

The train was gone. Some people approached the body on the tracks. They carried him to the platform. It took me a couple of seconds to remember that I am a doctor and the possibility that the poor victim might still be alive. I joined the people, identified myself, and thought I felt a pulse in his carotid artery. A passerby who seemed to be a Spanish nurse started reanimating. He was shouting that we have to respirate him. I saw a woman calling the emergency. I shouted that we needed a defibrillator and a woman came to me saying that she will fetch one from 100 meters away. We alternated the pressing, there was no chest wall because of the trauma.

Meanwhile, we were a big group of civilians that had rescue backgrounds, a nurse, a firefighter, and a first-aid worker. I checked his pupils, which were wide and not reactive. The defibrillator came, we put the electrodes on the chest, “no shock advised”. The defibrillator didn’t detect any pulse. We kept on CPR till the ambulance team came. After the body check, it was clear that it is too late. May he rest in peace.

I turned my head to find another collection of people. An Arabic lady seems to have collapsed and lost consciousness, affected by the whole scene. She was twitching with closed eyes. A strong pulse. A policeman was holding her legs up. I tried to contact her until she came back to her senses.

I looked around me, the station was full of people on duty. Policemen, first-aid workers, and other helpers. I gave my contacts to the police and asked for permission to catch my flight. I spent the rest of the day with a heavy sadness. As a doctor, we are used to injuries and death. But witnessing the whereabouts and the events is a heavy load. I wrote this here to clear my head and my heart, and as an attempt to cope with what happened today. I apologize if I made you sad.

Update: here is the news covering about the accident.

https://www.ndr.de/nachrichten/hamburg/Radfahrer-stirbt-am-S-Bahnhof-Ohlsdorf-Mordkommission-ermittelt,ohlsdorf214.html

and the person who pushed the victim was caught:

https://www.ndr.de/nachrichten/hamburg/Toter-Radfahrer-Polizei-verhaftet-mutmasslichen-Schubser,ohlsdorf220.html

From the Brain Tumor Clinic

Give me a minute, I will dance again…
I will smile at you..
I will share a story..
I will take you for dinner, and I will pay too.

Give me an hour, we will go for a walk..
We will breathe that fresh air by the river, we will eat grilled chestnuts..
We will laugh and talk..

Give me some more time, and I won’t save a dime.
I will buy myself a ticket, I will buy you one too..
I am not too sad, I just don’t like farewell parties.
I will have a few drinks and then slip away when nobody is watching..
“Oh.. He left. It was nice when he was here..”

Well, here is a memory to keep.
I will tap on your shoulder,
and caress your neck.
Remember these touches,
Unlike me, they are eternal.

It is not what they think..
I am not collecting much pleasure now.
I am trying to leave bits of me behind.
I don’t want to cease to exist.
I don’t want you to forget.

Oh, I guess it is time.

I will put on my favorite socks with bicycle patterns
I will ride my bicycle to that field with the blooming flowers
I will take photos of the yellow ones.. at the time of the sunset.. 
Just like every spring, when I think they bloom to say:

Adios

Artwork: passing of hope

Photo: Passing of love, using: photo by Zoe, photo by Danielle Dolson , photo by Julian Hochgesang, photo by Aron Visuals

Without a Smartphone

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My stepping out of the smartphone world was not intentional. Having accidentally killed my iPhone 4s by forcing it to learn swimming with me in the pacific ocean, I was left off the grid. A new iPhone was out of my budget and I didn’t like androids. I decided on a small call-or-text Samsung phone to bridge my downtime. Then life has changed!

This post is not to convince you to dump your phone. Rather a retrospective reflection on the past two and half years of smartphoneless life.

I do miss access to music whenever I want. An iPod shuffle partly solves the problem (thanks Christian). I do as well get lost a lot without google maps. However, two GPS devices (thanks Elke and Susanne) and asking beautiful ladies on the street eventually save the day. I do not have immediate access to google and consequently most of human knowledge. However, a set of Moleskin® notebooks (thanks Merve) are my usual company and capture most of my questions for a later google time. I can not check a restaurant, a book, a movie nor a product. Which is partly solved by asking people (Mostly they check their phones, thanks everyone!). More and more of things that I “miss” or do not have anymore.

However…

I grew to like this new life-style. I feel way more relaxed now than before.
When I had a smartphone, I checked it often. Facebook, instagram, twitter.. etc.. I had a constant nose in everybody’s life. I knew a lot about my friends and even people I didn’t care about. This was sometimes too fast that usually didn’t have enough time to emotionally process some events. A wedding in Italy, a friend’s mother in Egypt got cancer, a bomb in Belgium, etc.. Within minutes, my emotions were confused in a roller coaster. Needless to say that after a while, after knowing so many news too fast, you stop caring about all of them. They all become some post on your feed or a message in your inbox. Most of your connection with them is “reading” about them. I didn’t like this.. It reduced my daily experiences to a very minimal quality. And when I met the person that I read about him/her, I didn’t feel much. The first shock was absorbed by the crowded online input. I chose to reduce this to the couple of hours in the evening when I have access to the internet and social media.

When I am offline, I have more time to think, to reflect, and to be genuinely bored and left to myself. During my many years of smartphone use, I forgot how to deal with myself! The smartphone provided a constant escape from self. An easy distraction. Let me message him or her, let me check facebook, let me look at this or look at that. A constant seek for something to fill the void. After losing my smartphone, I had to re-learn dealing with boredom. I had to pickup the habit of thinking and daydreaming.. It is simply more time for me.. rather than looking at people’s lives or replying to their contact.
Besides, I have to memorise things now.. to calculate things.. to remember the road and directions.. these little cognitive tasks are very enjoyable for me..

This phase without a smartphone is very peaceful. I will probably get myself one in the future. But not now 🙂